Friday, March 29, 2013

Emotional Health Is Important Too

Things are so different lately. 

Yes, working out is still a priority. Eating healthy is still a priority. The healthy living side of my life is still a priority. 

So what's different?

This feeling that I've been having. This feeling, that as my life gets busier,  I might actually love it. Well, yes, I love my life. I have a pretty awesome thing going on right now, but that's not what I meant. I love being busy. Insane, right? Would anyone actually love being ridiculously busy all the time? Right now, I actually do. So maybe one day I might not say that and maybe one day (like in 3 weeks or so) I'll want to slow way down. But right now, as long as I maintain the healthy living side of my life, the busy side just augments the positives in my life. I'm too busy to worry about the things that used to bother me about myself. I know that I've traveled a long journey with my soul and that for the most part I have to accept myself for who I am. I know that not everyone will see you for who you are, but you should continue to be the person you are despite how others view you.

It's so easy to get bogged down in everything. It also amazes me when something is truly important to me, I'll place those thoughts above any others in my head, no matter how much I shouldn't be thinking about them. The brain is such a powerful and intriguing tool to me. I have so much empathy for everyone that I meet that sometimes I have difficulty knowing when to walk away from the troubles that they have that I want to take on as my own. Have you read this paragraph? It's not making much sense but hang on a second and I think it will come together. 

What I'm trying to say, and not so eloquently, is that this blog is changing. I've never been good with blog themes. I prefer to just be real, off the cuff, and say what I need to say when I need to say it. You never know when someone is reading what you wrote and thinking that they are just so happy to know that they're not "alone" in their feelings. 

So for now, I'll just say that this is where I stand. 

There are plans for a fall half marathon in the works, where I plan to race my little heart out and sub 2 the half. However, realistically speaking, I'll really just be running to keep myself sane during the fall. This girl, right here, always needs a plan for something to keep moving forward. Plans are just plans - they get you somewhere but it doesn't always end up being where you intended or even thought you would ever be. That's this crazy thing called "life" for you! :-)